Saturday Musings…

It’s Saturday again and I am sitting at my computer with a cup of coffee listening to my nephew play some shoot ’em up video game in the other room and enjoying a rare moment of if not peace and quiet at least a moment to myself without anyone needing me for something. The oldest daughter and son are away for the weekend with the grand babies on a camping trip. I have to give them credit. I have camped with wee ones before and I did not volunteer to join them! The little girls are 2, 2 1/2, and 5. I am curious to hear the stories that will come back with them when they return home tomorrow. I know my son already posted on his FaceBook the comment “Having to tell your child ‘Do not play with any animal unless we brought it with us’ ”  and it has me wondering what kind of creature my oldest grand-daughter has found and hoping they don’t bring it home with them!! Raven is the  Animal Whisperer–everything loves her and she fears no creature so no telling what she has found…

I was looking back over my posts to make sure I wasn’t repeating myself and I realized that I have been here for over two years. That is a LOT of posts! It’s also a really cool commentary on my life and all the ups and downs I have experienced, both personally and professionally, and now I am curious and want to sit down and read all my back story.  How has my life changed since I came here? What has stayed the same? Blogging for me is like a diary that I share with the world. I really don’t filter anything. what you read is what you get. I am an open book in many ways because that is how I am in real life. However, I find that I will share more of my feelings here than I will in real life because this is a safer format. I don’t have to deal with haters or naysayers in person. If I don’t like what someone says I don’t have to read it or I can skip over it to someone who is more positive. I can’t do that in person.

Over the past couple of years I have made some good friends through games I play on the internet. My husband doesn’t seem to get that the people I talk to via chat are actually REAL people. I think he thinks they are just computer-animated or something. He finally got a clue a few years ago when I went to San Francisco to meet in person many women who I became friends with through The Cherries, a group of readers and writers who became the first successful social media group in the history of social media. They were attending the RWA conference and I live close to the Bay Area so we all met up for dinner. There were at least 40 of us in that dining room at Buca de Beppo’s and it was a blast to put faces to names.  Many of these woman live on my FaceBook pages and we stay in touch, as well as I set up a page for the Cherries on FaceBook when the Yahoo group finally went silent so that we could continue to celebrate the uniqueness that is The Cherries.

Saying that I have had some concerns recently for a friend who I only know through my game. (I do know his real name but since we get confused with real names versus game names I usually refer to him by his game name.) Kodiak texted me on  Tuesday this past week with a cryptic message that he was in  the hospital with a blood clot on his lung and to let his guys know. I was completely freaked out! I asked if he was ok and he said he was trying. That is such a typical response from him!! I told him to give my number to his wife immediately and that I would be praying for him. One of my biggest fears with my online friends is that something will happen to them and I will never know because the family wouldn’t know to contact us. Hence the number to the wife…

I was a basket case the rest of the day. Turned out he has blood CLOTS–plural–in both lungs and has now also been diagnosed with Lupus. I was absolutely terrified he would die and I have texted his wife every day to see how he is progressing. Today he has to have fluid drained from a lung and I know he is scared  and it breaks my heart not to be able to be there with them. He lives down in the Los Angeles area so he is not a long distance from me. I have already decided if he takes a turn for the worse my son and I will be taking a road trip, since my son also plays the game and has known him almost as long as I have.

How has the internet influenced your life? Is it a positive thing or do you find it intrusive? I find that the internet is a lifeline that I would not be able to live without for a very long period of time. It provides me with information at the click of a mouse. I have found old friends and have made new friends via Facebook and  other social media that will be with me for a life time. I have met people via the internet who I would have otherwise never connected with and my life is richer for the experience. I have a new friend who lives in another state and we click so well that we have decided that we are going to have to meet up soon in real life to share a cup of coffee and some porch time to chat face-to-face! For someone like me, who has few close friends, these kinds of friendships are important and I cherish them. By the time we finally meet face-to-face we will be so well in tune with each other that we will probably speak telepathically!!

By sharing my thoughts and feelings here in this blog I feel that I share a bit of myself every week with all of you as you follow me on this crazy trip called life. Its been a privilege and a blessing to have been here for two years already and I hope I can continue to entertain you with my adventures for a long time to come! Enjoy your Saturday and i hope you have a blessed day…