Coffee, Puppies, and Deep Thoughts on a Saturday…

Fat Boy sept 2013

panda puppy

Rope sept 2013

Runt  puppy sept 2013I’m sitting here at my computer this morning, coffee in hand, contemplating life and the choices I have made over the course of 50 years that have gotten me to where I am today and whether or not I made a mistake or two along the way. I know, deep thoughts for a Saturday morning, right?! I have four of the cutest puppies God ever made playing at my feet, the sun is coming up, I have coffee and my house is at peace—for now.

I have had a very stressful week, both at home and at work. Enough stress that I have been evaluating my job and how much I want to continue doing it. Unfortunately jobs that pay as well as mine are few and far between in my area so the idea of being able to change out of my profession is not very realistic. My life is very complicated at times and often the thought of just chucking it all—job, mortgage, car payment, everything—and running away to a little cottage on the coast somewhere becomes rather appealing. Then reality sets in once again and I put my shoulder to the plow and push on through.

With this much conflict in my life I should be able to write the Great American Novel without a problem! Lord knows I have material for days! Unfortunately though I have the will I have not the time. Real life gets in the way of what I truly want to do and so here I sit, frustrated by choices I have made and wondering if I will ever accomplish what I know in my heart is what I am meant to do. Sigh…
On the up side I have PUPPIES!!! And not just any puppies—Damerainian puppies! My husband has a miniature Dachshund, I have a Pomeranian. We thought we kept them apart but apparently we didn’t do a very good job of it and his little dog had four puppies which are now six weeks old. I am so grateful to have these wonderful little puff-ball in my life right now—this week they have been a Godsend. Every day I come home and climb into their enclosure and revel in the pure joy and love that you can only get from a puppy. My stress melts away and I am at peace once again. (How people live without pets I will never know.) I realize they will be going to new homes soon but for now they are all mine ! Be jealous, be very very jealous!

Have you ever had a moment in your life that caused you to step back and take a second look at how things were going? What did you do? Did you continue on or did you make a change? How old were you—did it have anything to do with the decision you made? I think it would have been easier to make these choices when I was younger—I am now 51 and feel pretty locked into the life I have… And before you tell me to just chuck it and do what I want just know that my income is vital to the continuation of life as I know it—I don’t work for the fun of it! The floor is now open for discussion…